5 songs soundtracking my life right now

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I’m an introvert, I really am. At different points in my life it hasn’t always looked to be true but when a persons idea of a good recharge is spending time alone in a bookstore...it’s a hint.

A month before Christmas I went for one of these little recharges and found myself wandering around Barnes and Nobel for about an hour. The last bit I was drooling over all the journals and I stumbled upon a promoted journal called “The 52 Lists Project”. Now, to be fair, I have had heard and seen this book before. I honestly brushed it off because it was too trendy, even having it’s own hashtag! After actually holding the book in my hand though, flipping through the beautiful pages, inspiring writing prompts and perfectly paired fonts, I was all but sold. I mean journal prompts to make lists? It’s like someone knows me!

I do confess that at first I tried to create my own…as E.Gilbert in Big Magic might say “imitating to innovate." Except trying to design something from scratch that is supposed to give you space to write  AND is already there, asking you to sit down with a cup of coffee, is kind of counter-productive. 

Alas, I bought it and I am so happy I did. I have been jumping around a bit, not completely going through the book in order. This week the list prompt I worked on was “List your life’s soundtrack”. Man, pre-parenthood I was often discovering new music and particularly looking up lyrics that spoke what I needed to say. And I absolutely loved making mix CDs (especially for a crush, each song really being a secret message)  fully decorated with different colored sharpies! These days my music listening is done whilst making dinner or my ears are bleeding from hearing Raffi’s songs for children one too many times. With my limited exposure I picked my songs based on lyrics and enjoyability to sing while I’m floating around the house doing chores or playing with my littles.

In no particular order..

one // These words touch on my desperation to be present in all things.

I won’t be holding my breath for chariots
I’m not just waiting for skies to part
You’ve been my glimpse of Kingdom right from the start
And you got me touching heaven
— Johnnyswim, Touching Heaven

two // “Villans” by Johnnyswim // In sum, marriage. It’s hard to love so deeply sometimes.

Here we go again making villains out of lovers
Tearing down blue skies
Turning cloud nine into thunder, thunder
So complicated trying to love with ease
We’re dodging arrows that we think we see
— Johnnyswim, Villans

three // My new lullaby I sing to the boys when putting them down to bed.

brush the cares right off your shoulders
you were never meant for those even when you’re older
you’ve got permission
to be free
— Andrea Marie, You'll Be Glad

four // “Hallelujah” by Leonard Cohen // No need for a caption. 

love is not a victory march
It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah
— Leonard Cohen, Hallelujah

five // From our valentines playlist from last year. Gives me all the feels and reminds me the grandness of loving each other for who we are now. 

In spite of ourselves
We’ll end up a’sittin’ on a rainbow
Against all odds
Honey, we’re the big door prize
— John Prine, In Spite Of Ourselves